On Anne Rice, writing and messianism…

There must be balance. And there must be kept a healthy distance and approach towards things in general or they get unbelievably and comically ridiculous. I could never understand extremes – people from both sides of – let’s say – an argument which has been going on since the release of Memnoch the Devil. I’ve been usually a silent observer watching people wrestling either with the books (the last one Blood Canticle in particular), their own emotions concerning the book/s and with the thought that Anne Rice would no longer write about vampires.

On one side you’ve got appearing to be raving-mad self-called Christians-true-Catholics calling The Vampire Chronicles “satanic books” and praising Anne Rice’s “coming back to the light” while on the other side of this barricade you’ve got so called old-readers – who’d jump to anyone’s throat (Anne Rice’s included) to defend “good old” Lestat – and with them old-school Goths throwing meat at Anne Rice and laughing at her –something what may appear – an eccentric change of literary path. Such extreme reactions from both sides are not only ridiculous and infantile, but also show the lack of common sense and with it, the lack of contact with reality; needless to say, they stand for a clear proof that people don’t pay attention to the literary label which all of Anne Rice’s books have – and that is FICTION. Of course love for the books may explain that, in my opinion, violent defense of the characters; but nothing explains idiocy or ignorance or ad-hominem. Both sides lack healthy distance towards (probably themselves and) the books which although may be influencing, they have always been and remain fiction. This and more, my friends, all of us should have in mind when any and each one of us attempt to write a critical essay or simply voice an opinion not only on matter of Rice’s writing but just on anything.

And there’s Anne Rice herself; although I have no difficulty with understanding Anne’s choice – or motives even – of/for changing her literary subject from gothic to catholic, so to speak, I don’t quite understand why Mrs. Rice acts as if everything prior to Christ the Lord was “ the literary shameful incidents” which need to be revised, reinterpreted and explained again in order to fit the new literary and religious route in her life and work. And this is exactly the impression I’ve been getting from her for a long time now – in interviews and messages to fans. It surprises me, it saddens me and leaves me utterly stunned and baffled. As much as I can understand Mrs. Rice’s lack of distance towards matters concerning her religious conversion which probably was/is the main reason of that lively debate she’s been having with fans and critics over the World Wide Web, I can’t understand the lack of mentioned distance towards herself and her writings. It is as if Mrs. Rice was ashamed of her neo-gothic literary “nest egg” which now has no place in her new professional and private life. So it has to be, like I already said, reinterpreted to not cloud or distort the message of “the Christian fiction”.

And here we’re getting closer to the point, I’ve got this feeling that the dangerous line has been crossed – when an author stops being a writer and turns into man with/on serious mission – a crusader. It is toxic, I could risk saying, when fiction using religion and its iconography wants indirectly to be something more than fiction; there’s danger of falling into demagogy, religious indoctrination and devout impotent preaching. Author’s motives may be honest and pure but lack of distance usually spoils the effect. Of course, choosing such dangerous form of rhetoric won’t repel declared believers, but it’s rather highly unlikely it will be accepted by many of old readers or enchant skeptics or those with undecided “religious preference”. It’s not my place to judge the literary quality or value of Anne Rice’s “Christian fiction”, but I believe it would have been taken and understood far better if Mrs. Rice had kept her personal life and religiousness away from her writing. I fear that Anne Rice’s good intentions of trying to speak about “the Word which became flesh” and her personal experience of “faith in ecstasy” fell under the category of indoctrination in this purely American style, or maybe it’s me being a typical central Eastern European born in the post communistic-catholic country and brought up in catholic family thus being completely resistant to basically any form of indoctrination or too flowery and nonchalant talk about somewhat private – if not intimate – matters such as religion and faith. Yes, I am aware that it’s not viewed as intimate to the American people, it explains the popularity of televangelism and everything that comes with it in the USA while here in Poland it’s viewed extremely negatively. “America the country of People who simply believe”, as I read somewhere, it does not matter in what, but they do.The idea of evangelization is completely different in this Slavic corner of Europe.

The Mayfair Witches series and the Vampire Chronicles series stand for a fine example of a neo-gothic literature which enchants people and will continue enchanting, there’s no hidden mission or a a satanic mission as some hard-catholic try to make those books look like. The Christ the Lord series though brought Rice’s fiction to a completely new level, they became a tool of evangelization and religious indoctrination basically because of a heavy personal involvement of Anne Rice herself. If you read some of the comments from new (Christian) Anne Rice readers concerning her New Catholic Fiction, you’ll find declaration of “coming back to the Church”; “feeling HIS presence”; “Anne Rice making Christ so believable” (which is funny really). One may ask if Anne writes just fiction, I believe it’s not just a fiction anymore. I also don’t think it’s necessarily a good thing either. Of course, I have no doubt that her new Christian readers are simply delighted, I remain reserved and skeptical.

Anyway, instead of attempting to proceed further with some psychoanalytical analysis – so commonly performed in quasi biographies or in essays dealing with Anne Rice, her religious conversion and latest books – which could probably give laboured answers to all of my “whys” here, I prefer to pose only questions and wonder, and mourn. This is just a sketch to perhaps a deeper and nice thesis dealing on social psychology and literature and how an author turns from a writer into a preacher and their word becomes “THE word”, or “THE flesh”.

Insomnia, my friend.

I can’t sleep.  Freezing and melancholic, I can’t stop listening to Lisa Gerrard’s “The Sea Whisperer”. Her voice and music is so beautiful, sad and at the same time comforting. I know that in my current psychological condition I should not be listening to her music.  But.  But my previous attempts of forcing myself to enjoy more cheerful or energetic  musical pieces just fell through. I heard the sounds but at the same time I was deaf to them.

If I could add a visual presentation of this particular piece and my longing of a peace of mind… it would be Arnold Bocklin’s “Villa by the Sea” or “The Island of the Dead”.

Villa by the Sea by Arnold Bocklin

Villa by the Sea by Arnold Bocklin

The Island of the Dead by Arnold Bocklin

The Island of the Dead by Arnold Bocklin

These places appear in my dreams often…

Gods, I should take some rest. There’s a comfort in sleep which I had not known before. When You fall asleep, your mind switch off. There’s some consolation in that, yes..

What I see…

I’ve always considered myself to be a simple person. And by “simple” I mean “not complicated”. I’ve never felt a need to explain myself or prove anything to anyone, except to those few people whom my selfish self cherished (and still does) so much, and sometimes desired to own even. I know, terrible. But that’s the truth. I’ll never tell you that I want to “own” you. Of course, I usually end up hurting deeply those I keep close to myself, then again, it’s common with all people, so maybe it should not bother me that much. Yet it does.

This fondness of simplicity, in art, in life, in reason, in everything… I’ll try to explain. It probably has a lot to do with my outlook on life which can be pretty much explained by a few rather common words: simplicity is elegance. If your mind is as open as you‘re probably declaring just now in this very moment as you’re reading these lines, you can apply my reasoning to every aspect of human life. It takes the whole human life – as they say – a full life circle to understand that simplicity is peacefulness and quietness and beauty. I realised it a long time ago, but it does not mean anything at this point. It only means, I recognise the Beauty. What is simplicity? It’s ability to see order in chaos or simple forms in most complex ones. This order of which I am talking about is neither control or rules, it’s not categories either. It’s sense and clarity, simple as that. What is wisdom if not the ability to explain most difficult matters in clear and simple words? I hope I’ll be able to do that one day…

Sometimes I feel like Orlando whom Queen Elizabeth said “do not fade, do not get wither”. And she/he didn’t grow old. But it wasn’t the Virgin Queen who said those words to me. It was someone else… You might think me mad but I won’t grow old until I become old and then, die. Oh no, I won’t live like Orlando three hundreds years and change my sex somewhere in the middle. I am saying that I’ll probably grow old within a few days or months someday and die. Then again, someone said to me once “you really never know”. Haha! (Yes, that was precious….moment of blissful drunkenness when everything is clear. You truly feel as if you understood the universe.) True, I don’t. Maybe my unbreakable Will turns me into one of those strange things of Nature. My dream is not immortality though, far from it. <i>Powidok Aukasól Afterimage Nachbild Parhélie Black Body Lasur Prisma Erdschein Alizarin Rose Madder I am</i>

Pierre-August Vafflard "Young holding his dead daughter in arms" 1804


This painting is one of my art “loves”. You can also see a book example of the Romantic ones – both in form and theme. The theme – tells a real story about the English poet named Edward Young struggling with the body of his dead daughter. She being the protestant was deined the burial in the Catholic cemetary… The form – the cold light of the moon, the night, the unrest sky, the haunted face of Young and finally the marble body of his beloved daughter…